"What do I labor for?" she asked in one letter. "If there be no God, there can be no soul. If there be no soul then, Jesus, You also are not true."

"These are letters that were kept in the archbishop's house," the Rev. Brian Kolodiejchuk told Phillips.

The letters were gathered by Rev. Kolodiejchuk, the priest who's making the case to the Vatican for Mother Teresa's proposed sainthood. He said her obvious spiritual torment actually helps her case.

"Now we have this new understanding, this new window into her interior life, and for me this seems to be the most heroic," said Rev. Kolodiejchuk.

According to her letters, Mother Teresa died with her doubts. She had even stopped praying, she once said.

The church decided to keep her letters, even though one of her dying wishes was that they be destroyed. Perhaps now we know why.

If this is truth… Then she deserves even more respect – not for her doubts, but for her noble and hard work in spite of her doubts!
The most magnificent people do what they do because it comes from the abundance of their honest hearts, not for the sake of anybody – even for the sake of God (unless one who know that in fact there is no distinction between one’s own honest heart and will of Supreme Being).

A person expecting reward for good deeds, whether here or in an afterlife cannot be altruistic.
Never considered her altruistic, seems like I was wrong.

A person expecting reward for good deeds, whether here or in an afterlife cannot be altruistic.

Never considered her altruistic, seems like I was wrong.

This is news to me, too! But if Mother Teresa started losing her faith in divinity I can very well understand it. Two years ago I wd have considered, like some believers, a blasphemy. But now I can appreciate her quest, pangs and her plodding on on the straight and narrow path despite the loss of faith. Hats off, Mother!

We have a belief that the closer we are to God, the more we face challenges and tests of our faith. She's human after all.

To question and believe is stronger than to question in blindness.

Much props to MT for having the gumption to say what was on her heart and mind, in spite of what pressures might have kept her from doing otherwise.